Here are some things I've noticed since this bout of depression and increased anxiety has hit me:
- My brain either wants to eat or doesn't want to eat ... which is impacting my tummy
- I've allowed myself to eat what I want some days "just to make me feel better"
- I haven't exercised much due to the medicine restrictions and falling asleep standing up on a treadmill or in the pool just didn't seem safe
I also checked in to see how my health was doing with my cholesterol. I decided to get put on cholesterol meds at my last doctor's appt due to genetics, but I agreed to it only if I was on a low dose because I also wanted to keep doing the work on my own. I'm very proud to say that my cholesterol is in the normal zone! My LDL was 99 and my Tryglicerides were 111. My HDL which was below 40 a few months ago is not sitting at 50 which isn't optimal, but it has come a long way since 29 at the beginning of 2012! I know that it is a combination of eating well, exercise, and medicine, but I'm so happy we don't have to up my simvistatin and that I'm able to contribute to my overall health. It is definitely a plus in the battle of the bulge.
Taking care of me also means that I parted ways with Walden University and am stopping taking classes towards my Ed.D in Higher Education. I need a break. I need some time. I need to be rejuvinated and I wasn't getting that at all with Walden especially after this medicinal episode of not so much fun. I have enrolled at TCU to take some classes for fun and I'm really excited to explore, learn, and enjoy classes. There is no "real ending" and I'm hoping to take it all in and enjoy it. Now I just need to get into a community college and start to teach!
By switching colleges I've also been able to rejuvinate myself in student affairs. It is no secret that after leaving housing I was plum exhausted. I was not looking forward to work an the workload I had was not for me any longer. It hurt me in the long run, though I loved my students. Well after a 6 month hiatus of me time I got involved with Frog Camp this summer and it was awesome. From meeting some awesome people that run Frog Camp I was recruited to help with the Freshman Connections program and I got to go to a meeting with that today. I'm so pumped to be a mentor! Overall I think this is the first summer in over 5 years that I haven't dreaded school starting because with housing your worn out before school starts! So this year I'm happily waiting for school to start ON MY BIRTHDAY! I'm going to sit back and enjoy it...because this is why I do what I do!