A few weeks ago when I started monitoring my weight in the midst of medication change, I thought to myself that the last thing that is going to happen is me lose any weight at all because medication changes usually equal weight gain due to appetite effects. I just happen to be on a medicine now that well...has made me gain a lot of weight in the past. So here I am at 201 lbs and going on a weight gainer I think "wonderful....!" I concentrate on eating right, taking in my protein, drinking my liquid etc etc...
I'm not a chronic "weigher." My doc has really stressed to me that to weight once a week is more than sufficient. So I don't even own a scale! I know shocking right - I know if I did I would be obsessed to the max. Last night I went to a dear friend's house. He is a WLS patient as well, but a bander. He has lost a ton of weight in his journey as is nearing his goal weight despite a number of road blocks with some medical complications. He has the ultimate scale and is where I weighed last time a few weeks ago. Last night he suggests that I weigh in. I think to myself ok why not what do I have to lose? heheheh so here I am in his garage weighing in. I put the bar on 200 and its too heavy. I place the bar on 150 and move the tab over slowly at 50 lbs exactly its not balancing. I decide ok I'm taking off these jeans and I'm weighing for real. I readjust the bar and it moves to 48. 150 + 48 = 198. There in the garage of a great friend I weigh in and I meet ONDERLAND!
I didn't know what Onderland would feel like but it pumped me up. Not only do I feel great weight wise, but my tummy overall is feeling good. My body feels clean, upbeat, and I feel like my body is working well despite the mental fog. I feel motivated with my weight in a positive healthy state where I'm going at my own pace and not comparing myself to friends WLS weights, inches, and more. This is my journey and thought it took me 9 months and 20 days to reach Onderland, the point is I MADE IT! Not that it took this much time blah blah blah. I MADE IT! I want to shout it from the roof tops and sing and dance in the street. Me...Melissa....omg I have made it to under 200 lbs!
I'm so proud of myself and so very proud that I have been pushing through all of this extra "stuff" and managing my food demons and appetite road blocks. I am Melissa and I'm a member of the Onderland Club and soon to be a member of the 100 lb loss club as now that I am 198 my century club mark will be 194. Next goal - 194. Next celebration - "Century Party: 100 lb loss!"