So how do I beat this ? Here is my work in progress statement - I don't know how to beat this on my own, but I do know that I can beat it if I use all the tools at my disposal. So where do I begin. I begin at assessment. I begin at cataloging what is going on and what needs to be fixed. First fix needs to be medication balance as my weight has changed drastically it is time for a medication overall. Second it is time for a realistic assessment that work and life is stressful and with a medication change comes the challenge of re balance and refocus. I'm not excited about this nor am I truly happy about it, but in all truth its a necessity. It is a huge bummer that this is happening, but I knew that change would come. I voluntarily went through this change and this tweak to medication for my mental illness is just another part of the journey.
In all honesty I don't feel invincible. I feel miserable. I feel worn down. I feel overwhelmed. I feel like there is so much going on and I can't get a grasp of what to first - but alas its the illness...not me talking. Now to conquer this medication change so I feel more like me.