A little anxiety relief

Now for most people it would be anxiety ridden to hit the scale and in all honesty there is always a moment where i hold my breath and pray the heavens to not have gained lbs. It is a fat girl habit that i have not lost yet so that said it was driving myself crazy trying to figure out how much I weigh and where I am on my goal weight. The last goal I set was 240 lbs. Today I blew it out of the water. I weighed in today at 238.8 lbs! That is a total of 55.2 lbs since January 10th!!! Talk about anxiety relief...I hit a surpassed 2 goals in one weigh in. First, I officially hit the 50 lb loss mark and secondly I hit my 240 lb weight goal. I'm proud of myself because it is always a big deal to loose lbs for me, but after the last few weeks of hard weight loss and work i have to admit that i'm really proud of those lbs lost. It gives me some motivation to keep going and hit my new goal of 230 lbs.

I know that it is not all about weight lossed and it is about the journey, but the brain and society is aimed towards lbs lost. I know that if I asked my surgeon if i'm hitting the right marker of "weight loss" he would tell me that it is not about the lbs or the clothing size it is about how i feel and if i'm getting healthier. so...to answer my own question i have no idea if i'm on the right path, but i feel better, i am looking skinnier, and i'm getting healther. it is a good thing over all to be on this journey and i need to ease up on myself because i'm not going to fail. i'm going to keep trying every day until i'm at my ultimate goal to really like and enjoy my body and to be healthy! taking a deep breath and moving on with my busy day ahead!